Tributes have poured in for Taiwanese actor, singer and host Alien Huang (born Huang Hong Sheng) since news of his death made headlines on Sept 16.
The 36-year-old's body was found in his apartment, just outside the entrance to his bathroom. The cause of death is still unknown.
Among the heartfelt tributes were actress and singer Rainie Yang, who was also Huang's ex-girlfriend. The two dated for three years back in high school and have remained friends over the years.
She wrote on an Instagram post (translation by 38jiejie.com), which has garnered 700,000 likes so far: "Thank you everyone for your concern. I won't pretend that I'm doing well, that I'm alright. Because it's impossible to be good, to be alright."
But Yang says the pain she feels is nothing compared to the pain felt by his family. "After finding out about the news, I was worried about Hong Sheng's family's emotions. They must be suffering several times more than me."
Even in death, she believes Huang is never truly gone.
"Hong Sheng, I believe in the future you'll still be here. It's just that you'll be using a different format to be around. Thank you for appearing in my life."
謝謝大家對我的關心 我不會假裝我很好 我沒事 因為不可能好 不可能沒事 鴻升的離開 讓太多愛他的人 都感到非常不捨 知道消息後 我很擔心鴻升家人的心情 他們一定比我還要痛上好幾倍 看到媒體新聞報導著他的好 很欣慰 因為他真的非常努力 很珍惜每一次的舞台 很重視得來不易機會 但他的好 不只是那些 在螢光幕前看不到的地方 他的好 更是讓我覺得 能夠與他相遇 是我這輩子的福氣 我說過 「我們不是只是出現在彼此的青春 我們其實是一直出現在彼此的各個階段 當然包含未來也是」 鴻升 我相信未來你還是會在 只是用不同的形式陪伴 謝謝你出現在我的生命裡 很高興我們都有把滿滿的愛和關心 適當的表達給對方 失去你 是可惜的 不捨的 但我們沒有留下一絲遺憾 R.I.P 永遠懷念你 2020/9/16