PETALING JAYA: Despite being treated for broken legs, a fractured arm and having a blood transfusion after a freak accident, Patricia Soh was never the same again.
Her skin would flare up from time to time with redness, itch and swelling on her body and she would be in excruciating pain.
Despite seeking medical treatment, doctors too were unable to cure her while the medicine she took did not ease her conditions.
“I remember scratching my skin so hard that it bled.
“I was only 22 then. So I stopped taking medicines and began to have suicidal thoughts,” said Soh, who is 46 now.
“I am in pain. It itches every night. I cannot sleep and have to scratch every part of my body.
“I cried in silence. My thoughts of taking my own life just grew stronger,” she said, adding that her husband scolded her after she conveyed her negative thoughts to him.
But after many hours of crying and having negative thoughts, she realised the stress she suffered had aggravated her condition.
“Instead of drowning myself with such negative thoughts, I told myself to just take one day at a time.
“As I dealt with my thoughts, emotions and moods, I was aware of myself,” she said.
She added that the flares on her skin were more controllable over time.
As for 32-year-old Leane May Ong, it was bullying in the workplace that caused her to have suicidal thoughts when she first joined a company some 10 years ago.
“As I was a junior, my colleagues were often nasty and badmouthed me in front of the bosses.
“They even tried to frame me for mistakes I did not make,” said the communication executive.
Ong said her effort to be friendly with her colleagues did not help either.
It only strained her relationship with her colleagues who continued to badmouth her.
“I found myself without any friends and I had to juggle from being cautious with my colleagues and completing my daily work tasks.
“The bullying left so much pain and there were times I found life was not worth living,” she said, recalling she hurt herself once.
But she was lucky to have her mother’s and younger sister’s ears.
She said her mum and sister helped her to be a positive person when listening to her problems.
She said she was determined to continue with her work as she did nothing wrong.
Eventually, the bullies left the company after their antics were found out.
She said it was important to seek help and reach out to others.
Ong said such an act not only gave her better self-realisation but also made her a stronger person.
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